again,thankyou so much for responding to this post.
gee,what you folks have gone thru is pretty hard!my life is nothing like that at all;it's basically calm.the only triggering event i can think of is very petty,really. a car alarm had gone off one night.the police towed the car after my landlady and i called on the alarm,which wouldnt stop cycling[i hate car alarms-way too many people never respond to them-ya can't sleep thru that din ever!].the only reason the car was towed was that it was unregistered.so,the problem was solved.but neurtoic me worried that the car would either be gotten out of the tow yard or that some one else's car would have an alarm problems.3 mornings later,i awoke with this wierd feeling of depression,which in my case,is not sadness or grief.it just feels wierd.i feel like a nut case,quite frankly.
devine-i am sorry that you've had such a set back due to the girls' father and that you have not been able to work.that's rough.in my case,i am functioning well enough-but with little pep,to be sure.i hope you'll recover and that you'll enjoy a nice relationship with your new sig other.
pixie-i know you've had a terribly rough life,and it sure makes sence that it'd aggravate a chemical condition as well as mabey even caused it.stress can truly affect brain chemistry.
i feel badly,too,for the user who's boyfriend's cheating on her caused such misery and still continues to.i had a guy break with me years ago,but during the time i felt normal grief,never depression.just sadness,which healed soon enough.

i don't have the life difficulties you all speak of here.
thanks so much for your commiseration.
on a side note,i started the niacin therapy-with the 500 mg pills.damn,i flush like a motherfucker!!bright pink-how embarrassing.perhaps you guys could consider this niacin-it is a stress vitamin and has worked wonders for people.the flushing is supposed to lessen with time.it also helps lower cholesterol.
all this buttoning and unbuttoning...